Sleep Deprevation

I've never been so afraid of a time of day. The night, I fear it lately. Due to my disease (Hashimoto's Disease) it is not only a physical disease, it is a mental disease. I struggle with severe paranoia. Since Brandon died my paranoia has gone out the roof. I get so scared to sleep these days. I get so afraid to dream, and to wake up and deal with this another day. I don't know how to handle this.