inspirational things i need to list

So, this morning i woke up with not a single spark of happiness minus the comfort of my dog Pyper laying next to me. So i've decided to force my day into happiness because i want to be happier. I'm listing all the things im grateful for and that make me happy

• music
• my dear family <3
• my pets
• writing
• classic novels
• non-fiction
• my wonderful imagination
• the escapes i have in my head
• being passionate about something
• soft things
• vintage
• 80's movies
• when something or someone loves you
• feeling healthy
• unconditional love
• my mother
• my father
• philosophers
• people who can dream with me
• the way vinyl sounds when the needle hits it <3
• indie music
• smiling
• feeling alive
• the morning
• down pours
• thunder
• lightning
• the gospel
• understanding people
• cooking with Sam
• going to lunch with my mom
• my boyfriend
• people who know my vibe and who i am
• open fields
• oak trees
• sunshine
• singing birds
• small towns
• walking
• mountains
• art <3>
• poetry
• my true friends
• helping people
• sidewalk chalk
• dorky glasses
• feeling intelligent
• learning
• miniature things
• stuffed animals
• being outside
• adventure
• climbing trees
• spontaneous things
• fire (explosions)
• being able to see beauty as an individual
• ugly couples
• creativity enveloping the world
• handwritten letters
• clear skies
• snuggling
• trusting people
• being myself
• people who enjoy my venting and they can vent right back
• a good non-offensive argument
• living with your head in the clouds
• the bohemian lifestyle
• Ohio
• places with beautiful landscapes like Greece or the Netherlands
• the feeling of purity/innocence
• being comfortable enough to cry with someone you love
• the 1800's language. oh how i wish we still talked and dressed like that
• gentlemen
• Witty people
• dry humor
• being happy with who i am and embracing my flaws and gifts
• overcoming a trial
• talking to strangers
• graceful dancing (ballet/modern)
• picnics
• swings
• the inspiration my nightmares and paranoia give me
• cursive handwriting
• typewriters
• megaphones
• screaming to let out a feeling
• not caring what other people think
• doing what i want without worrying about what other people want or will think

Well i feel a little better. I'm making today a good day even though last night was heartbreaking

So i've been on the floor all day cuz i'm sick and everyone is gone so im on the internet scavenging for vintage unique crap and look what i found.... :O

A VINTAGE DRESS FROM THE 1930's....or at least it appears that way. Doesn't get more exciting than that. Too bad it's too expensive....back to scavenging...

0.o My Dreaaammmm

So, college, a good thought and a bad thought. I'm excited but I'm not excited. I'm really just sort of confused. I'm DYING to get done with highschool. I don't understand why people told me before i started highschool that it'd be one of the best things that would happen to me. Ya know, like one of the best times of my life. haha...yyeaahhh, not so much. Highschool has had some fun stuff. I've met some amazing people that have changed myself and my life for good, but there was a LOT of bad. And i don't mean to sound so pessimistic, but highschool really has just been a stress fest and i dont see how it was worth it. We just learned about Benjamin Franklin and his point of view on education. He educated himself by reading the classics and studying philosophers. Things like that! A lot of the greatest people in history educated themselves like that. I read the classics in my spare time, but if i had more time i'd be able to read them more. Books that educate me are my favorite. I love learning about philosophers and i enjoy classes like sociology but i wish they'd take it a step farther and teach us how to succeed. I will use some math in my life but to be honest i never want to go into a profession with extreme math skills and Precalc is pretty advanced skills. I think there is some rearranging that needs to be done haha but i'm grateful i had the chance to learn. All the highschool drama just seems to be drowning me. I'm lucky to have drama free friends. We'll see how college is. I hope i get some good people to room with.